Charmed

As I was lying on the bed, with a single tear balancing on the edge of my eye; the day could not get worse. I had no idea why I was low. I had a bad feeling about almost everything in my life. I had spent last night fighting the morbid thoughts my brain was churning out.

I had angels watching over me.

As I cuddled with my favorite pillow and turned on the television someone was waving a wand. One of my favorite movies was on and I was right one time. This never happens to me .Ever.

The little imp's were hard at work.

As I went on receiving compliments and sweet messages from friends, acquaintances and total strangers, I knew I was blessed.

How a sweet message from a total stranger can cheer you up is magic.

It was just that the time was wrong

The delicate strands, formed out of bizarre coincidences, consequences of perfect timing and a testament of the ridiculous inconsistency of human nature.

I am inclined to leave it at that. But people already suspect that I am crazy.

I like to think that accidental happenings which later became important in my life were a sort of sign. Our lives would be so different if we were in a different place on the day that we met our lover. If I were in a different place ? If I had already been in relationship? If I was not feeling almost lonely? If I was not ready to feel vulnerable?

How many relationships have gone by us just because the time was wrong?

I like to think that knowing the person a little gives us control over the relationship.Relationships and human nature is ridiculous, a great friend can make a frightful boyfriend. A great son could be a awfull father.

Why I am a different person in college and at home scares me sometimes.

5 Questions

Do you think your looks have helped you?

They have certainly made a difference, but I can’t say always to my benefit. HOD’s have been known to flunk me because I am who I am and look like I do.

What would you change about your life?
Nothing much, I like me and what happened to me is a part of who I am. I am only twenty one, no regrets yet.

I wish I had read Steinbeck sooner though.

What is the one thing that attracts you to a person?

I can’t really think of one thing, it could be anything. Their general demeanor, eyes, the way people laugh, the music that they listen to.

Why do you dislike talking about yourself?

It’s a devious scheme, I love talking about myself and act like I don’t and then people want me to talk about myself and everyone is happy.

Why do you overreact when you hear about parents trying to stay together for the sake of their children?

Ah, I don’t overreact. I believe that when your parents do not love each other the kids can sense that and they feel insecure. If by staying together the parents are bringing out the worst in each other, it can’t be good for the kids.